Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Blues. Blahs. Blather.

I expected a letdown after all the excitement of the past two weeks. But I didn't expect to be quite so crushed.

I took a five-mile walk yesterday morning, at my usual glacial pace of 3mph. For the rest of the day I did … nothing. Took a nap. Threw some sausage and tomatoes into a pot of beans and rice and called it dinner. Took another nap. Watched an hour of television. Went to bed.

No laundry. No grocery shopping. No decluttering. Nothing from my mental to-do list was accomplished.

Three things were (are) weighing me down:

  • The children are all back home (obviously I knew they would go home, but still – it's awfully quiet around here)
  • My AA sponsor's recent death, and my unfulfilled need to talk to her
  • The first Father's Day without my dad hit me harder than I expected

This, too, shall pass. It always does. I need to be patient with myself.

So. Happy Summer Solstice to you. I hope I can get out of this funk before the first day of fall.


Anne M. said...

Sending big hugs - and thanks for the Twitter add!

You're weighed down by some big things, and having them all together makes the collective weight heavier. What I see is that, even though you're in a funk, you still walked 5 miles, made a tasty dinner, and took care of yourself with rest.

I call those "mental health days" when we're not sick but we need to do nothing in the normal routine. Laundry, groceries, and decluttering can wait a day - or a week.

You don't need it, but I give you permission to have a few mental health days. You'll get sick of them and be ready to get back to your regular busy life.

In the meantime, your "glacial pace" is what I do on a good day, and I don't get 5 miles under my belt. You are still my hero :)

gingersnapper said...

What Anne M said.

Elizabeth said...

Sounds like a normal reaction to all this. Rest up. Any good books you can read? Or knitting projects to start? Good movies on the tv? Watch UVa-USouth Carolina in the College World Series tonight at 7 on ESPN!