Or, if you're picky about grammar, not the news for which we were hoping.
The tumor is not in the parotid gland, which usually are benign. It is instead in a lymph node. The abnormal cells which were present are being stained and studied and the report will be available in a few days. We have an appointment Tuesday.
We didn't think we would learn as much as we did yesterday during the procedure. We kind of wish we hadn't, actually. But there are five days (counting today) between now and Tuesday, and we want to make the best of them. After that, we're probably in for a long haul of cancer treatment.
There. I said it. CANCER.
I've been dancing around that word, here and in my head, for a couple of weeks now. How is it possible that my husband can feel so good and have cancer? He's not in any pain, has no symptoms. How many 67-year-old men do you know who routinely take five-mile walks outdoors on a very hilly road? Most of the Medicare-aged gentlemen around here are parked in a La-Z-Boy watching reruns on TVLand. Not all, but most.
This is West Virginia, after all.
So we will move forward, with grace, and get through this and come out better for it, better as people and better as a couple. Better as friends (our friends are amazing and wonderful), better as parents to our respective offspring (we have no children together), better as grandparents. Better.
Thank you again, thank you always, for your good thoughts and heartfelt prayers.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Apologies
I'm sorry that the blog has lately been all tumor, all the time. When I write about "normal" stuff, it feels inauthentic. (Is that a real word?)
My husband's biopsy is tomorrow. We'll be at the hospital most of the day. There are two good things about this.
1. We'll finally start getting an answer to exactly what we're dealing with. No results for a few more days, though.
2. The hospital has free wi-fi. I can downlpoad to my heart's content while he is in day surgery. Heh.
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My husband's biopsy is tomorrow. We'll be at the hospital most of the day. There are two good things about this.
1. We'll finally start getting an answer to exactly what we're dealing with. No results for a few more days, though.
2. The hospital has free wi-fi. I can downlpoad to my heart's content while he is in day surgery. Heh.
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Monday, March 28, 2011
Busy as bees
I must admit, it's difficult to think of something to write about other than the tumor in my husband's neck. We spend our days staying busy so we don't think about it, but the very fact that we're manufacturing "busy-ness" makes us both aware of what's really on our minds. And, to be honest, when I'm not creating a distraction, I'm playing some kind of addictive computer game. If it hadn't turned cold this weekend, I'd have been in the garden. Wearing mud boots, for sure, but I'm definitely ready to dig in the dirt.
Men's college basketball was a good distraction this weekend. I don't know if Butler can legitimately be called a Cinderella team, since they made it to the Final Four last year, but they were a high seed and made it again. The true Cinderella designation belongs to our neighbor to the east, Virginia Commonwealth. They played one of the first entry-level games in the tournament, and there was much discussion about whether they even deserved to be there.
I think they proved their mettle, knocking off Kansas, the only remaining #1 seeded team. They play Butler next weekend; should they win, they will then play the winner of the Kentucky/Connecticut game for all the marbles. The glass slipper, if you will. For once, I'd be happy if any of the four teams won the championship.
Thinking about Japan and the tragedy there always brings us back to reality and offers some perspective. iTunes has arranged with 38 artists to offer a "Songs for Japan" playlist for just $9.99, with proceeds benefiting that devastated country. My favorite artist, Bob Dylan, is on there, with (what else?) his iconic Shelter from the Storm. It's an easy way to help out, even if you've already sent a donation to one of the worthy groups who are working there. I like that it doesn't involve actually staging a benefit concert, while in effect it is a benefit concert. No lights, camera, action, venue, audience, expense. Just lots of great music, helping those in need.
Friday, March 25, 2011
Friday Quote Day
What worries you masters you.
Maddon W. Robinson
In an effort to try to live more normally – that is, to live in a way that doesn't involve thinking about illness and treatment and death all day long – my husband and I went shopping yesterday.
We don't go shopping, as a rule. I go shopping, rarely, and usually just for groceries. So I'm not sure how "normal" it was to drive to the nearest large city that has a bookstore. And a Target. But that's what we did, instead of anything else we might have done here at home.
And it felt good. We had a nice day, with a late lunch (the Garden Bar at Ruby Tuesday's) that ended up leaving both of us too full for dinner when we got back home.
One day down, 11 to go, to learn the nature of what is growing in his neck.
I'm shocked, shocked! that I've gained just two pounds in all of this. I feel like I can get back on track – get back to normal – without too much effort. Walking is a pleasure, a good habit that I greatly miss when circumstances prevent my taking one, as they have recently. If I can stop the mindless snacking, and stop buying things to mindlessly snack on, I can get the food back in line.
One day at a time. That's worked in the past, solving other life problems. No reason it won't work for this. In the end, it's really the only way to tackle any issue because in the end, really, all we have is this day. To make the best of it is a good goal.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Work-ups and workouts
My husband's otolaryngologist and the radiologist who read the CT neck scan are in disagreement as to the location and type of tumor present. Needless to say, our emotions have been all over the place.
The upshot is that he will have a biopsy of the tumor on March 30. We'll get the results April 5. This plan cancels a second biopsy; depending on the results we get in April, he may still need that, but since there's a question, the plan has changed.
April 5 seems like a long way away. We're going to enjoy this time and think positive thoughts.
I've been walking five miles about every other day, and hope to string a few consecutive days together between now and next Wednesday. We walk together sometimes, and that's been very pleasant, but we also want and need to go solo. It's helpful to have some time to do nothing but think, and walking is great for that. I went camera-crazy yesterday; if you follow me on Facebook, you might have seen a few odd images posted in the morning.
I wish I were the kind of person who "just can't eat a bite" when she's feeling tense or anxious. I'm the one who dives into whatever carby goodie happens to be handy, and if there's nothing available, I'll make something. I've been known to mix sugar, flour, shortening and milk into a thick, doughy paste and eat it with a spoon. Kind of like cookie dough without the eggs. Desperate times call for desperate measures.
Since the diagnosis is now in question, my husband has decided his weight-gaining program isn't quite as urgent. He's gained five pounds so far, but doesn't want to get any heavier. He's still not smoking. Yeah for him!
I thank you all for your comments, thoughts and prayers. We've had support from a huge number of friends; it seems like the whole town is praying for us. I'm not refusing any kind of supplication; we are being lifted in the Light by Christians (Baptists, Episcopalians, Methodists, Catholics, Quakers), Jews, Wiccans and Buddhists. Bring it on.
The upshot is that he will have a biopsy of the tumor on March 30. We'll get the results April 5. This plan cancels a second biopsy; depending on the results we get in April, he may still need that, but since there's a question, the plan has changed.
April 5 seems like a long way away. We're going to enjoy this time and think positive thoughts.
I've been walking five miles about every other day, and hope to string a few consecutive days together between now and next Wednesday. We walk together sometimes, and that's been very pleasant, but we also want and need to go solo. It's helpful to have some time to do nothing but think, and walking is great for that. I went camera-crazy yesterday; if you follow me on Facebook, you might have seen a few odd images posted in the morning.
I wish I were the kind of person who "just can't eat a bite" when she's feeling tense or anxious. I'm the one who dives into whatever carby goodie happens to be handy, and if there's nothing available, I'll make something. I've been known to mix sugar, flour, shortening and milk into a thick, doughy paste and eat it with a spoon. Kind of like cookie dough without the eggs. Desperate times call for desperate measures.
Since the diagnosis is now in question, my husband has decided his weight-gaining program isn't quite as urgent. He's gained five pounds so far, but doesn't want to get any heavier. He's still not smoking. Yeah for him!
I thank you all for your comments, thoughts and prayers. We've had support from a huge number of friends; it seems like the whole town is praying for us. I'm not refusing any kind of supplication; we are being lifted in the Light by Christians (Baptists, Episcopalians, Methodists, Catholics, Quakers), Jews, Wiccans and Buddhists. Bring it on.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Where to begin?
March 11 was the day the tsunami hit Japan. I didn't know about it because our power was out. When I finally did learn of it, it made a power outage and water problem seem oh-so-small and insignificant. But I also had something else on my mind, something of a personal tsunami, if you will.
My husband found a lump on his neck, a mass of some sort that just didn't feel right. He is a doctor (a retired psychiatrist), and thus is very reluctant to see a doctor for anything. The fact that he made an appointment with our family doctor for the following week and then made an appointment with an ENT made me take it as seriously as he was taking it.
He was able to get in to see the ENT first (we subsequently canceled the family doctor appointment), who palpated the mass and declared it malignant. CT scans of the lung, head and neck were ordered. We learned the results of the scans today.
The good news – the best possible news for today – is that the head (brain) and lungs are clear. That means treatment can proceed. Had the lungs been involved, there would have been no treatment whatsoever, with an unknown prognosis. Clean lungs means he will possibly need to endure six months of chemotherapy and radiation.
Note I said 'possibly.' There is the slimmest of slim chances that what the ENT pronounced malignant could be benign. The CT of the neck had to be repeated today. Biopsies are scheduled for Friday and next Tuesday.
What kind of malignant is it? Could be a couple of things. A parotid gland would be the best – snip it out and go on your merry way. That also is the least likely possibility. Hodgkins would be okay, but he doesn't have any symptoms, other than the mass. Metastatic squamous cell neck cancer is the most likely diagnosis, the one that means six month of "hell," as the ENT put it.
So my continuing quest for a healthy life is not because I'm pregnant (see the previous post's comments), although right now that would be a preferable diagnosis to the one we may end up with. It's because I'm more than likely going to be a nurse for a while, and nurses work hard. I need to be in tiptop shape to handle – physically and emotionally – what may be coming down the pike for us.
The irony is that my husband is the thinnest he's been in his adult life. Chemotherapy usually induces a loss of appetite and tremendous weight loss. He has no pounds to spare, so we're fattening him up, just in case. Dessert has been on the menu regularly this week. The candy dish beside his TV-watching seat is full of peanut butter-and-chocolate goodies. Cookies? Sure! Bread pudding? Comin' right up.
Any day you find out your husband doesn't have lung cancer is a good one, and so I am declaring today to be magnificent. He's a lifelong smoker, more than 50 years now, and it's rather a miracle that he doesn't have some kind of lung issue going on.
He's been a non-smoker for four hours now. Maybe that's the best news of all.
My husband found a lump on his neck, a mass of some sort that just didn't feel right. He is a doctor (a retired psychiatrist), and thus is very reluctant to see a doctor for anything. The fact that he made an appointment with our family doctor for the following week and then made an appointment with an ENT made me take it as seriously as he was taking it.
He was able to get in to see the ENT first (we subsequently canceled the family doctor appointment), who palpated the mass and declared it malignant. CT scans of the lung, head and neck were ordered. We learned the results of the scans today.
The good news – the best possible news for today – is that the head (brain) and lungs are clear. That means treatment can proceed. Had the lungs been involved, there would have been no treatment whatsoever, with an unknown prognosis. Clean lungs means he will possibly need to endure six months of chemotherapy and radiation.
Note I said 'possibly.' There is the slimmest of slim chances that what the ENT pronounced malignant could be benign. The CT of the neck had to be repeated today. Biopsies are scheduled for Friday and next Tuesday.
What kind of malignant is it? Could be a couple of things. A parotid gland would be the best – snip it out and go on your merry way. That also is the least likely possibility. Hodgkins would be okay, but he doesn't have any symptoms, other than the mass. Metastatic squamous cell neck cancer is the most likely diagnosis, the one that means six month of "hell," as the ENT put it.
So my continuing quest for a healthy life is not because I'm pregnant (see the previous post's comments), although right now that would be a preferable diagnosis to the one we may end up with. It's because I'm more than likely going to be a nurse for a while, and nurses work hard. I need to be in tiptop shape to handle – physically and emotionally – what may be coming down the pike for us.
The irony is that my husband is the thinnest he's been in his adult life. Chemotherapy usually induces a loss of appetite and tremendous weight loss. He has no pounds to spare, so we're fattening him up, just in case. Dessert has been on the menu regularly this week. The candy dish beside his TV-watching seat is full of peanut butter-and-chocolate goodies. Cookies? Sure! Bread pudding? Comin' right up.
Any day you find out your husband doesn't have lung cancer is a good one, and so I am declaring today to be magnificent. He's a lifelong smoker, more than 50 years now, and it's rather a miracle that he doesn't have some kind of lung issue going on.
He's been a non-smoker for four hours now. Maybe that's the best news of all.
Friday, March 18, 2011
Friday Quote Day
When you feel like giving up,
remember why you held on
for so long in the first place.
Author Unknown
I'd be lying if I said I didn't feel like giving up sometimes. Just about anyone who eats reasonable amounts of healthful food and walks five miles a day would be losing some weight, right?
Anyone but me, apparently.
My longterm goals – being able to keep up with the grandchildren, living a long life, avoiding and/or preventing the debilitating diseases (especially, but not limited to, diabetes) attributed to obesity – have kept me going so far. I'd also like to fit into the closet full of clothes that I'm loathe to give away. Yet.
After all this time, it's become a habit – one I don't want to break – to take that walk every day. I missed it terribly when the water was down for a few days and I didn't want to sweat. I love to cook, and it just makes sense to me to cook the most healthful meals possible.
Both my parents' deaths can be traced to poor diet and obesity. Simple as that. I've already outlived my mother, who was ill four years before she died.
I have another reason I need to lose weight, a new one, something I can't talk about yet. I'll know more next week, and I'll be writing about it, because just as that daily walk makes me feel better, so does blogging. I've taken short blog breaks in the past, usually when I'm out of town, but occasionally because I just get tired of doing it. I always come back, though, because it helps me get things off my mind.
I hope both of you have a great weekend. I plan to. Spring really does seem like more of a possibility than a tease lately, and I think I'll do some of the pruning and raking that I didn't get done last fall. I need to give my perennials room to grow!
And whether it helps me lose weight or not, I'll be taking a couple long walks.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Dizzy dame
I think my dizzy spell was a not-serious low blood sugar issue. I had some oatmeal before I started walking, but no protein. Believe me, if I thought it was anything serious I wouldn't be out walking again RIGHT NOW. Thanks for your concern, I do appreciate it.
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The road to hell is paved with good intentions
I had every intention of throwing a post up yesterday sometime, but the day got away from me. A lot happened, most of which I can't really talk about yet.
I had an unusual walk in the morning. Knowing I had to leave for an appointment at 1 p.m., I was on a schedule and walked quite briskly (for me, anyway). A little past the halfway point I felt like someone or something pushed my right shoulder. I stumbled to my left and felt very dizzy for a few seconds. I remember shaking my head, like you would to get the cobwebs out, and continuing on. But I didn't get very far.
I had my cell phone with me and, thankfully, it worked from the little valley I was in. I called my husband to come get me, and I've been fine ever since. My goals are pretty much shot for this month. I don't think I can make up the five days I missed, but I'm going to try. Yesterday's 49 minutes didn't help erase my deficit.
We noticed a flat tire on my husband's car when we got back, so we have to take care of that this morning. I'm going to make time to walk first, though. Another busy couple of days looming.
I hope you're acting on your good intentions. I'm sure going to try!
I had an unusual walk in the morning. Knowing I had to leave for an appointment at 1 p.m., I was on a schedule and walked quite briskly (for me, anyway). A little past the halfway point I felt like someone or something pushed my right shoulder. I stumbled to my left and felt very dizzy for a few seconds. I remember shaking my head, like you would to get the cobwebs out, and continuing on. But I didn't get very far.
I had my cell phone with me and, thankfully, it worked from the little valley I was in. I called my husband to come get me, and I've been fine ever since. My goals are pretty much shot for this month. I don't think I can make up the five days I missed, but I'm going to try. Yesterday's 49 minutes didn't help erase my deficit.
We noticed a flat tire on my husband's car when we got back, so we have to take care of that this morning. I'm going to make time to walk first, though. Another busy couple of days looming.
I hope you're acting on your good intentions. I'm sure going to try!
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
How about some knitting for a change?
I'm too fat to run, it's too muddy to plant, too early to reap and eating has been … meh. So what am I knitting these days? A sweet little shrug which I hope to complete before my oldest granddaughter's birthday in a couple of weeks.
I'm using some yellow Brown Sheep Cotton Top, a long-discontinued 50/50 cotton/wool blend which I snapped up on eBay when I used to haunt the yarn sales there. I haven't bought or sold anything on eBay in such a long time. Are they still up and running? Heh.
The shrug is from the Spring/Summer 2009 issue of KnitSimple. That issue has a dozen Post-It tabs sticking out of the pages; it's unusual for me to find so many appealing patterns in a warm-weather issue. (Pardon the poor-quality photo. The lighting in this room is less than ideal for extreme close-ups of knitted fabric.) The simple slip-stitch pattern is easy to work and makes the knitting a little more interesting.
The only problem I've had so far is that the description of the shrug says it's seamless, while the pattern clearly has you work a back, two fronts, two sleeves and a knitted-on border. I would have preferred seamless – that's why I cast on that particular pattern in the first place – but I should have read the directions all the way through.
Oh, well. It's an easy, fast knit for a petite teen, and provides a nice break when I get tired of computer solitaire.
I'm using some yellow Brown Sheep Cotton Top, a long-discontinued 50/50 cotton/wool blend which I snapped up on eBay when I used to haunt the yarn sales there. I haven't bought or sold anything on eBay in such a long time. Are they still up and running? Heh.
The shrug is from the Spring/Summer 2009 issue of KnitSimple. That issue has a dozen Post-It tabs sticking out of the pages; it's unusual for me to find so many appealing patterns in a warm-weather issue. (Pardon the poor-quality photo. The lighting in this room is less than ideal for extreme close-ups of knitted fabric.) The simple slip-stitch pattern is easy to work and makes the knitting a little more interesting.
The only problem I've had so far is that the description of the shrug says it's seamless, while the pattern clearly has you work a back, two fronts, two sleeves and a knitted-on border. I would have preferred seamless – that's why I cast on that particular pattern in the first place – but I should have read the directions all the way through.
Oh, well. It's an easy, fast knit for a petite teen, and provides a nice break when I get tired of computer solitaire.
Monday, March 14, 2011
The trouble with slow food
Finally, shortly after noon yesterday, water was restored here in the Middle of Nowhere. We had it for a brief period on Saturday – long enough for me to run the dishwasher and take a camp shower – during which time the pressure fell, and we knew the pump had shut off again.
So the crew came back at 9:30 Sunday morning and worked another three hours on the wiring and it's done. I'm not quite ready to trust that it won't shut off again, but after another load of dishes, three loads of laundry and another shower, not to mention brushing my teeth and making coffee with running water from the tap, I think maybe we're good to go.
My husband threatened to go – as in move to a condo someplace in the south – in the midst of the crisis. I think he was kidding, and he's moved his worrying on to the Next Thing. (Because it's always something.) His dream location would be near a coffee shop, a bookstore and a gym, with moderate year-round temperatures.
I think I did pretty well sans l'eau, as long as the power was on. That half-day with no water and no electricity sucked. We survived, obviously, but we certainly are dependent on the grid, and we're not alone.
Now that we're back to what passes for normal, the thing that hit me hardest was meal prep. I'm a slow-foodie. I cook from scratch, and I don't buy pre-cut vegetables or processed, packaged food. This week found us eating Hillshire Farms deli turkey, pre-sliced cheese, doughy sandwich buns – you get the idea. One night I pulled a container of black-bean chili from the freezer, left over from a previous meal, and served it over pasta (cooked in a pot of precious bottled water), but that was the closest thing to slow food we had all week.
Our food doesn't come from a tin or container that can be tossed in the trash. My yogurt is stored in a jar which will be washed and used for the next batch, as are the tomatoes, the pickles, the you-name-it. The oatmeal is measured into a pot and cooked on the stove.
In other words, slow food creates messes that need to be cleaned. With water. When you have no water, you're reduced to eating what fits in your hand – peanut butter, lunch meat, bagged salad, granola bars, fruit. I could have cooked, but without the means to clean the stove, pans, plates and utensils, I was loathe to do so.
Now that we have water, I'll be cleaning my house. A lot of dirt got tracked in, even though most of the work was done under the house and down the hill, where the pump and well are located. I used the dust mop a couple of times, but seriously? These floors need a mop. And water. I'm thinking of deep-cleaning one room every day this week, that's how bad it is.
Not having water is not only hard on a slow-food junkie, it's tough on a neat freak, too.
Friday, March 11, 2011
Power!
The electricity has been restored. Now let's pray for the water. Our electrician is on his way. Should the water problem get fixed, I'll be doing laundry. For days. Heh.
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Friday Quote Day
"Nothing in life is more remarkable than the unnecessary anxiety which we endure, and generally create ourselves."
- Benjamin Disraeli
Yeah, I'm a little anxious at this point.
The water has been non-functioning since Tuesday. As long as we still had electricity, I was dealing with the water problem pretty well.
The power went off sometime after midnight.
(Here's where I wish I could use italics, but there's no such option on the BlackBerry.)
OF COURSE IT DID!
My entire village is without power, more than 1000 customers. Grrr.
I'm anxious about the lack of exercise, for sure, but realistic enough to accept the situation and know that if I *could* shower, I *would* be sweating.
The eating is the harder thing to handle. I'm an emotional eater. I like to say I'm an occasional eater, I eat for any occasion. (That's how I used to drink, back in the day.) I want to eat crap - carby, sugary crap - on an occasion like this.
So far graham crackers have been the extent of the damage. But the day - nor the crisis - is not over yet.
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- Benjamin Disraeli
Yeah, I'm a little anxious at this point.
The water has been non-functioning since Tuesday. As long as we still had electricity, I was dealing with the water problem pretty well.
The power went off sometime after midnight.
(Here's where I wish I could use italics, but there's no such option on the BlackBerry.)
OF COURSE IT DID!
My entire village is without power, more than 1000 customers. Grrr.
I'm anxious about the lack of exercise, for sure, but realistic enough to accept the situation and know that if I *could* shower, I *would* be sweating.
The eating is the harder thing to handle. I'm an emotional eater. I like to say I'm an occasional eater, I eat for any occasion. (That's how I used to drink, back in the day.) I want to eat crap - carby, sugary crap - on an occasion like this.
So far graham crackers have been the extent of the damage. But the day - nor the crisis - is not over yet.
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Thursday, March 10, 2011
P.S.
It's very difficult to cook without running water. It's impossible to clean up. And as much as I hate it, we're reduced to using paper plates and foam cups until this crisis is over.
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Still H2O-less …
They worked and worked and worked, from 9 a.m. until 2 p.m., but there still is something wrong. The worst part is over – mounting the huge and heavy metal box, which will protect all the switches, wires, capacitors, etc., from future damage. The work will resume tomorrow.
They (our electrician, our neighbor and my husband) got caught in a horrible rainstorm, with wild wind whipping the rain into sheets. I hope none of them get sick.
When he got home, my husband handed me the mail, saying casually, "You got a letter from the White House. Looks like a personal letter, not a form letter asking for money."
I carefully opened the envelope and it was, indeed, a letter from President Obama. When my dad died (six months ago today, and oh, how I still miss him!), it fell to the family to procure a flag to use in the flag ceremony. Our Congressman was able to give us one, but we had to ask for it and pick it up. In the past – I don't know how long ago – the color guard brought the flag with them.
So I wrote a letter a couple weeks after Daddy's service suggesting that perhaps the government could rethink this policy. And today came the response, a form letter thanking me for my thoughts.
I'm not upset about the form letter at all. I didn't expect any response, nor did I require one. I just wanted to vent, I think, and I knew someone in the White House would read it.
I've heard that President Obama reads and signs 10 letters per day. We have other Obama "signatures" to compare this one to, and it looks authentic.
A treasure for this Democrat.
They (our electrician, our neighbor and my husband) got caught in a horrible rainstorm, with wild wind whipping the rain into sheets. I hope none of them get sick.
When he got home, my husband handed me the mail, saying casually, "You got a letter from the White House. Looks like a personal letter, not a form letter asking for money."
I carefully opened the envelope and it was, indeed, a letter from President Obama. When my dad died (six months ago today, and oh, how I still miss him!), it fell to the family to procure a flag to use in the flag ceremony. Our Congressman was able to give us one, but we had to ask for it and pick it up. In the past – I don't know how long ago – the color guard brought the flag with them.
So I wrote a letter a couple weeks after Daddy's service suggesting that perhaps the government could rethink this policy. And today came the response, a form letter thanking me for my thoughts.
I'm not upset about the form letter at all. I didn't expect any response, nor did I require one. I just wanted to vent, I think, and I knew someone in the White House would read it.
I've heard that President Obama reads and signs 10 letters per day. We have other Obama "signatures" to compare this one to, and it looks authentic.
A treasure for this Democrat.
Two showers in less than 12 hours
Because we can!
We showered last night at the motel before we went out for dinner, and showered again this morning before we checked out.
Hopefully the water situation will be resolved this morning. The wiring is coming together as I type; once everything is mounted and put together, all we have to do is put it up on the pole. I'll be spending just a little more time with the cows today, if they're still in that pasture.
I'm not as awesome as our electrician is. He is working magic on all these switches and boxes and wires, oh my, and I didn't even search for the workout room at the hotel. I guess these monthly goals are good for working toward; if I don't reach them, I won't feel like a failure, as I will have made progress.
Some things are unavoidable. Like water problems.
We showered last night at the motel before we went out for dinner, and showered again this morning before we checked out.
Hopefully the water situation will be resolved this morning. The wiring is coming together as I type; once everything is mounted and put together, all we have to do is put it up on the pole. I'll be spending just a little more time with the cows today, if they're still in that pasture.
I'm not as awesome as our electrician is. He is working magic on all these switches and boxes and wires, oh my, and I didn't even search for the workout room at the hotel. I guess these monthly goals are good for working toward; if I don't reach them, I won't feel like a failure, as I will have made progress.
Some things are unavoidable. Like water problems.
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Outstanding in their field
Usually when we have no water we also have no electricity. Not so this time … I'm trying to be grateful for that, at least.
When I woke up Monday I noticed that we had incredibly powerful water pressure, something that isn't the norm here in the Middle of Nowhere. We live "on a well," as they like to say around these parts, where water pressure is adequate, but not impressive.
So we called our friend Jack, who cleared his schedule and came a-running to figure out what the problem was. Jack truly is a jack-of-all-trades, electrician being the primary one. And he's helped us out in the past, so he knows our system. (When you live on a well, you either have had problems with your pump, or you will.)
Our pump and well are located quite a distance from our house. Thank goodness for my all-wheel drive vehicle, because the road – I use that term loosely – isn't very vehicle-friendly, unless your vehicle is of the all-terrain persuasion. Or a tractor, which I guess is the same thing.
Anyhoo. I made two trips to the pump location yesterday. The first was in daylight, and these guys greeted me enthusiastically.
When I woke up Monday I noticed that we had incredibly powerful water pressure, something that isn't the norm here in the Middle of Nowhere. We live "on a well," as they like to say around these parts, where water pressure is adequate, but not impressive.
So we called our friend Jack, who cleared his schedule and came a-running to figure out what the problem was. Jack truly is a jack-of-all-trades, electrician being the primary one. And he's helped us out in the past, so he knows our system. (When you live on a well, you either have had problems with your pump, or you will.)
Our pump and well are located quite a distance from our house. Thank goodness for my all-wheel drive vehicle, because the road – I use that term loosely – isn't very vehicle-friendly, unless your vehicle is of the all-terrain persuasion. Or a tractor, which I guess is the same thing.
Anyhoo. I made two trips to the pump location yesterday. The first was in daylight, and these guys greeted me enthusiastically.
We won't bother you if you don't bother us. |
Try your horn! We don't understand English! |
Objects in mirror are not only closer than they appear, they're bigger! |
The second trip was after dark. And guess what? We still have no water. And guess what else? It's raining this morning, and not safe to be messing around with electricity outdoors. Not to mention the fact that even though my car is all-wheel drive, I almost got stuck last night, and would hate to tempt fate on even wetter, messier, muckier ground.
So we're going to be spending the night in a hotel, because we can. I've chosen one that has a workout facility, free breakfast and wi-fi. What more could you ask for?
Before Jack came yesterday morning, I got up and walked for 90 minutes. I'm continuing to be awesome, doncha think? If I tried that today, though, I'd not only be soaked to the skin, I'd stink by the time I got done. Or, if I took body wash along, I could just shower on the hoof. So to speak.
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Hello, Internets, how I've missed you!
Running out of Gigabytes before you run out of billing cycle is like:
I haven't connected to the internet using the 3G modem since I got back from the beach. I went to town one day last week and stole some bandwidth from McDonald's, but everything else I've done "online" has been accomplished with the BlackBerry.
Which was fine, really, but still.
If I were still on the BlackBerry exclusively, I wouldn't have just deleted all my e-mails. My e-mails (I have a Gmail account) are sent to three computers and in order to stop that nonsense, I disabled the account on one of them. Then this morning I decided (I'm so brilliant) that if I downloaded the current e-mails to read later and then deleted them from the Gmail repository at Google Mail, I could enable that account again and it wouldn't be repeating something I've already done (thus using Gigabytes for something I've already done). (I realize upon rereading that this doesn't make a lick of sense, but it does to me and it's my blog. So there. Heh.)
What I didn't know, because I'm stupid, is that when I deleted the Google Mail mail, all of it was deleted from my Apple Mail program as well. Oops! I hope there wasn't anything important in there!
Well, I have a nice clean slate, anyway. Heh.
Winter has come and gone again since Sunday. It rained, rained, rained, sleeted, snowed, snowed, snowed and then yesterday it got wam and melted, melted, melted. The sky is glowing red this morning (sailor's warning) and I read a Flood Warning before I deleted everything. A nearby river was dangerously close to flood stage Sunday night/Monday morning and will probably get there again tomorrow. I hope it won't be a repeat of last year's disastrous floods.
Today, according to the gardening calendar, I'm supposed to plant lettuce and spinach outdoors. It's a little muddy for that; it'll have to wait until next week, or maybe the weekend, if we get some sun and wind to dry things out. According to the workout calendar I'm supposed to walk, but not lift weights. Because I did that yesterday!
I'm awesome, aren't I?
- Running out of yarn before you complete the sweater.
- Running out of energy before you reach the finish line.
- Running out of seeds before the end of the row.
- Running out of calories before the end of the day.
- All of the above.
I haven't connected to the internet using the 3G modem since I got back from the beach. I went to town one day last week and stole some bandwidth from McDonald's, but everything else I've done "online" has been accomplished with the BlackBerry.
Which was fine, really, but still.
If I were still on the BlackBerry exclusively, I wouldn't have just deleted all my e-mails. My e-mails (I have a Gmail account) are sent to three computers and in order to stop that nonsense, I disabled the account on one of them. Then this morning I decided (I'm so brilliant) that if I downloaded the current e-mails to read later and then deleted them from the Gmail repository at Google Mail, I could enable that account again and it wouldn't be repeating something I've already done (thus using Gigabytes for something I've already done). (I realize upon rereading that this doesn't make a lick of sense, but it does to me and it's my blog. So there. Heh.)
What I didn't know, because I'm stupid, is that when I deleted the Google Mail mail, all of it was deleted from my Apple Mail program as well. Oops! I hope there wasn't anything important in there!
Well, I have a nice clean slate, anyway. Heh.
Winter has come and gone again since Sunday. It rained, rained, rained, sleeted, snowed, snowed, snowed and then yesterday it got wam and melted, melted, melted. The sky is glowing red this morning (sailor's warning) and I read a Flood Warning before I deleted everything. A nearby river was dangerously close to flood stage Sunday night/Monday morning and will probably get there again tomorrow. I hope it won't be a repeat of last year's disastrous floods.
Today, according to the gardening calendar, I'm supposed to plant lettuce and spinach outdoors. It's a little muddy for that; it'll have to wait until next week, or maybe the weekend, if we get some sun and wind to dry things out. According to the workout calendar I'm supposed to walk, but not lift weights. Because I did that yesterday!
I'm awesome, aren't I?
Monday, March 7, 2011
A guilt-free rest day
It's been a long time since I've done absolutely nothing all day long to improve my fitness or maintain my household.
Until yesterday.
When I woke up, it was raining, raining, raining. Within a few hours, the rain was mixed with snow and now we have a couple of inches on the ground.
I could easily have walked the 20 yards or so to the garage to work out on the elliptical, but I made the executive decision to take a day off.
All I did yesterday was prepare dinner, play computer games, knit and watch a movie. It was a lovely day, despite the weather.
Saturday was good, as well. I did my strength-training routine (yay, me!), worked out on the elliptical, got cleaned up and then my husband and I went on a movie date. We weren't the last people in America to see "The King's Speech," but the theatre wasn't very full. Heh.
Shopping, dinner, a movie AND fitness, all in one day. No wonder I needed a day off yesterday! Hope you had a great weekend, as well.
Sent from my U.S. Cellular BlackBerry® smartphone
Until yesterday.
When I woke up, it was raining, raining, raining. Within a few hours, the rain was mixed with snow and now we have a couple of inches on the ground.
I could easily have walked the 20 yards or so to the garage to work out on the elliptical, but I made the executive decision to take a day off.
All I did yesterday was prepare dinner, play computer games, knit and watch a movie. It was a lovely day, despite the weather.
Saturday was good, as well. I did my strength-training routine (yay, me!), worked out on the elliptical, got cleaned up and then my husband and I went on a movie date. We weren't the last people in America to see "The King's Speech," but the theatre wasn't very full. Heh.
Shopping, dinner, a movie AND fitness, all in one day. No wonder I needed a day off yesterday! Hope you had a great weekend, as well.
Sent from my U.S. Cellular BlackBerry® smartphone
Friday, March 4, 2011
Friday Quote Day
Things do not change; we change.
~ Henry David Thoreau
Or at least we make the effort. And in making the effort, change happens. As Yoda said, "Do or do not. There is no try."
Wow, two quotes in one day. Does that make up for no quote last Friday? I hope so!
To paraphrase one of the most successful political campaigns in recent history, "Yes she can!" I did my little 10-minute weight-training routine yesterday morning immediately after posting and before I could let anything else distract me. And it wasn't so awful. I just need to put my big-girl panties on and get it done without thinking about it. Every other day, it's what I do. Just like every day I brush my teeth, take a shower, make coffee, check my e-mail.
Modern technology has expanded the to-do list. Heh.
Now that I can download podcasts in a timely manner (at least when I haven't run out of gigabytes), I've started listening to Two Fit Chicks and a Microphone. I've been reading Shauna's blog since for-freaking-ever, and have read her book. A coupla times! I've wanted to listen to the podcast she and Carla from MizFit have produced for more than a year now, but dial-up downloads are a drag.
With the 3G modem? Not much of a drag at all, and I've downloaded all available episodes. (Along with a learn-to-speak-French podcast and one on gardening. Which is most certainly why I'm pushing the data transfer limit.)
Anyhow, I started listening to Two Fit Chicks yesterday while I was walking, and I love it! The two episodes I've heard so far were both inspiring and even though I have nothing in the way of weight loss to show for my efforts, I still feel like success is in my future.
I hope I always keep this attitude. I passed a guy trimming trees yesterday, who remarked that he was glad I was the one doing the walking every day. I said, "Can you imagine what I'd look like if I didn't walk every day?"
He didn't reply to that, his mama must have taught him some manners!
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Strength training
I found an article in the current issue of Women's Health that lists 12 excellent reasons for women to lift weights. The reasons are compelling, inspiring, motivating, and I know I said I wasn't going to set a strength-training goal, but with this list in hand, I'd be crazy not to.
As I drifted off to sleep last night, I had the grand ambition to lift every other day, using the 10-minute routine I referenced last month. The light of day hasn't dimmed the ambition, a good sign for sure.
The 12 reasons begin with "You'll lose 40 percent more fat," meaning that the pounds you lose won't be muscle and fat, but largely lard.
Therefore, I'm going to cut this short and go lift weights. Really!
P.S. For those of you following my photo blog, I'll be updating it in a few days. My wireless plan limits me to 5GB of data transfer per billing cycles, and I'm running out. Again. I called our local high-speed wireless provider yesterday, but they haven't made it to my neck of the woods (literally) yet. I'm willing to pay an early-out penalty to the current provider (I use a 3G modem from my cellphone company) to get unlimited wireless access. Most people I know pay less than I do and have unlimited access. Grrr.
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Home again and the February wrap-up
First, thanks so much for your quotable quotes last week! I appreciate all the inspiration.
The length of a trip is at least two or three days more than the actual trip itself. Getting ready and packing take a day or two, driving takes a day or two and decompressing takes at least a day. For my little getaway last weekend, I drove to NC and then drove the next day with my son and his family to Myrtle Beach.
The trip was their gift to me for my birthday this year, one which ends in "0" and therefore is momentous. Since the trip began on February 25 and my birthday isn't until May 25, I'm telling everyone I'm having a three-month celebration for the big 6-0.
I had a great time, it was fun walking on the beach every day, not cooking a single meal from Thursday night until last night and enjoying some family time. The extended family is both shrinking and scattered, so it was very special that this effort was made.
The weight-training goal for February was a complete, utter, TOTAL bust. Not sure yet whether I'll try, try again. Two failed months in a row hasn't done much for my confidence in achieving it for a third.
I was a little worried that maybe I'd missed the mark with the walking goal, but I nailed it, and tacked another almost three-quarters of a mile to the desired total: 110.73 miles in 35.5 hours, or about an hour and 15 minutes every day. That's 3.11 mph, in case you're counting, so not a very swift pace, but it's done and I'm fine with it.
I did five slow miles yesterday but think it would be foolish to set a goal of 31x5 miles for March. Something will probably come up to derail my plans at least one or two days, and the rule of thumb is to increase mileage by no more than 10 percent. I think 125 miles would be a reasonable goal for March, with a secondary and non-specific goal of increasing my speed.
As for weight-training? How about if I commit to nothing at all, and surprise everyone when I report something. Exceeding a goal of zero shouldn't require much effort, right? Heh.
The length of a trip is at least two or three days more than the actual trip itself. Getting ready and packing take a day or two, driving takes a day or two and decompressing takes at least a day. For my little getaway last weekend, I drove to NC and then drove the next day with my son and his family to Myrtle Beach.
View of the beach from our 15th-floor condo's balcony. |
I had a great time, it was fun walking on the beach every day, not cooking a single meal from Thursday night until last night and enjoying some family time. The extended family is both shrinking and scattered, so it was very special that this effort was made.
The weight-training goal for February was a complete, utter, TOTAL bust. Not sure yet whether I'll try, try again. Two failed months in a row hasn't done much for my confidence in achieving it for a third.
I was a little worried that maybe I'd missed the mark with the walking goal, but I nailed it, and tacked another almost three-quarters of a mile to the desired total: 110.73 miles in 35.5 hours, or about an hour and 15 minutes every day. That's 3.11 mph, in case you're counting, so not a very swift pace, but it's done and I'm fine with it.
I did five slow miles yesterday but think it would be foolish to set a goal of 31x5 miles for March. Something will probably come up to derail my plans at least one or two days, and the rule of thumb is to increase mileage by no more than 10 percent. I think 125 miles would be a reasonable goal for March, with a secondary and non-specific goal of increasing my speed.
As for weight-training? How about if I commit to nothing at all, and surprise everyone when I report something. Exceeding a goal of zero shouldn't require much effort, right? Heh.
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